Apple Picking

Today we went apple picking at Applewood Orchard in Warwick, NY.  Jackson had such a wonderful time.  We gave him an apple to chomp on himself and he absolutely fell in love with them.  Here are a few pics from our trip today!  Enjoy everyone. 

I just need to get over myself...

   So this is my and Jackson's first FULL week of school.  I have to say that I am pretty much dreading it.  I like Jackson's daycare, I really do but I just can't seem to get over the fact that he is there and not with me.  

  I know Jackson is having tons of fun, I read his daily reports and they paint, and explore sand and glue, they go outside on their very own playground, work on language (Spanish, English, and Sign) and they go for buggy rides (which Miss Paula told me Jackson loves). I know it is all of this great stuff is making him look so exhausted when I pick him up and making it difficult for him to stay awake past 7PM.  I can tell that they love to take care of him and listen to myself and husband when we ask them questions or have concerns or just need to talk.  But it is the days that I pick him up and he smells like them that make me a little sad...I want him to smell like me.

   I guess I just need to get over myself and know that this is what I have to do for my family right now.  Just know that I love you Jackson!!

Day 1 of Daycare=Success, Day 2 of Daycare=SICK!!

Here is Jackson playing with the rabbit and cow at daycare right before we say good bye on Wednesday.





The picture of my little baby sleeping on the couch is my poor little man on day two of daycare because guess what happened?!!!!  Jackson woke up on Thursday with a fever, cough, and congestion!!!  YAY daycare!!!  I was so upset, I cried and told Chris that this was a sign that I was supposed to stay home for another year.

The end of an ERA: Dedicated to all SAHM's going back to work.

Well today was the last day of my job as a stay at home mom.  Tomorrow both Jackson and I embark on a new adventure.  Jackson will be off to daycare and I will be going back to teaching 6th grade only not English like I have for the past 5 years, nope, now I will be teaching social studies.

I cannot believe that this time has arrived.  As I drove to his daycare today to drop off some paperwork, I could feel my stomach churning.  As we spent the day together eating lunch, laughing, and swimming at the lake my eyes filled with tears several times but I fought to keep them at bay. As I type this blog entry I can no longer fight my tears...it isn't that I do not want to go back to work, I am excited to see everyone and teach again.  I just do not want to leave my baby in the care of someone else.  I want to care for my baby, I want to kiss his boo boo's, change his diapers, wash his face after he smooshes strawberries all over it, eat lunch with together, hug and kiss him whenever I want.  

Where has the time gone?  Why do we have to part?  Why do I have to go back to work?  These are all questions I have been asking myself for the past several weeks. I know, I know it will get easier, it's harder for me than it is for him, blah blah...I have heard it all...just let me cry, let me mourn the loss of my job as a SAHM.  Let me feel bad for myself for just one day, let me cry because for some reason that is all I want to do right now.

Raspberries!

Holy raspberries!  Jackson officially does not want Mama to feed him anymore, so that means that bath night is EVERY night!  I will say he is one smart cookie though, he will let me feed him soup.  It is as if he know that he cannot feed himself that just yet.  Genius I tell you, genius.

For all of you who are getting ready to go back to work, I wish you best of luck! I too am trying to mentally prepare myself for getting back into the groove of teaching, dropping off my baby to daycare, and learning how to juggle everything in my life!

Eating Lunch

Well I made some organic mac and cheese and then added some pureed broccoli to it for Jackson's lunch.  He seems to really LOVE it.  When I first put it down he used both hands to shovel it into his mouth.  

Jackson's new thing is that he loves to move his head in a side to side motion.  It is really cute, so I say, "Oh No you didn't" and he moves his head back and forth!! Take a look!

11:00

I tried really hard and even set 6 alarms to wake me at 1,2,3,4,5,and 6 AM but slept right through the birds chirping...blogapalooza is officially over...so sad...yet a relief!