Sunday, September 12, 2010

I just need to get over myself...

   So this is my and Jackson's first FULL week of school.  I have to say that I am pretty much dreading it.  I like Jackson's daycare, I really do but I just can't seem to get over the fact that he is there and not with me.  
  I know Jackson is having tons of fun, I read his daily reports and they paint, and explore sand and glue, they go outside on their very own playground, work on language (Spanish, English, and Sign) and they go for buggy rides (which Miss Paula told me Jackson loves). I know it is all of this great stuff is making him look so exhausted when I pick him up and making it difficult for him to stay awake past 7PM.  I can tell that they love to take care of him and listen to myself and husband when we ask them questions or have concerns or just need to talk.  But it is the days that I pick him up and he smells like them that make me a little sad...I want him to smell like me.
   I guess I just need to get over myself and know that this is what I have to do for my family right now.  Just know that I love you Jackson!!


  1. Aw. That would be so hard! But at least it sounds like he's having a good time.

  2. Don't feel bad about it. It's hard not to be the only one taking care of them. I can imagine it's even harder when you've been home with him as long as you have! I started to jot a story down on my blog, but then erased it because it sounded pitiful, but here goes: that cackling I heard from Chase had never been heard at my house before that time. I mean never!

    I started to get my feelings hurt, like, does he like her more than me, etc.? I finally had to convince myself that she takes care of babies for a living, so of course she's going to be good at it! She has practiced on hundreds of babies over the years, and I was just figuring it out on my first.

    Anyway, he finally started doing it at home a couple weeks later--though still not quite as often as he does there. Guess I'm just going to have to focus on the blessing that he has someone that is taking such good care of him since I can't be there. ((Sigh))

    Hang in there! It gets easier every day, I promise.